so its now the end of the third day without my eddy. Monday morning he left t 6am ans all i did all day was cry! lol. Got through the day and went to the gym but then drove home to mums house and spent time with mum, dad and Amy. was nice as i didn't want to be on my own. it is strange as it isn't really like any other Monday morning where he goes back off early to go back to work. but somehow i just knew deep down that he was gone and he wouldn't be back at the weekend or the weekend after or even the one after that. I felt like i had lost a leg, i cant describe the feeling i had! Just made me feel sick to the stomach. Sat with Amy listening to James Morrison's Won't let you go.... i just reminds me of Eddy and what we have and what i feel for him and all i wanted to do was cry! lol..... finally went to sleep.
Mum came in early morning Tuesday to get me up! boooo all i wanted to do is hie back under the duvet! Got up anyway and set off to drive back to Northampton with mum in toe :-). Ended up running around like a mad woman getting sorted for work but just managed to get to work on time. last night was my pamper evening and i was very much looking forward to having some friends over ans getting pampered. Angela, Steph, Jo, Gemma and Evelyn came and i also got to have cuddles with my baby Tommy :-) was an awesome night ans steph even stayed over so i wasn't lonely lol!
got up for work this morning. - Gave Steph an eternity necklace as she is such a good friend and it has meaning for the both of us. :-)
work was busy today and i found myself wanting to pull my hair out again lol. but hey ho just got to get on with it and it keeps me busy and occupied :-)
Amy has come over tonight to stay yeyyy. i made us dinner and we have just been chilling at my house. Even had the piggies out te he the cheeky Monkeys!! We are currently watching Saturdays xfactor on ITV catch up TV. Looking forward to tomorrow as we are off to London with Hayley yeyyy. Then its back for dinner at Bella Italia and Mum and friends are coming. Hazel and Jimmy are also coming over later in the evening yeyy. I will feel sad tomorrow as eddy will not be here buttt i am lucky to have such great friends and family around me. so very lucky xx 1 year ago tomorrow i was flying off to Monte Carlo. This year off to London wahooo. Its not where you go its what you make of it and London is close to my heart now. well i could sit here and chat al night but i wont :-p
Mum came in early morning Tuesday to get me up! boooo all i wanted to do is hie back under the duvet! Got up anyway and set off to drive back to Northampton with mum in toe :-). Ended up running around like a mad woman getting sorted for work but just managed to get to work on time. last night was my pamper evening and i was very much looking forward to having some friends over ans getting pampered. Angela, Steph, Jo, Gemma and Evelyn came and i also got to have cuddles with my baby Tommy :-) was an awesome night ans steph even stayed over so i wasn't lonely lol!
got up for work this morning. - Gave Steph an eternity necklace as she is such a good friend and it has meaning for the both of us. :-)
work was busy today and i found myself wanting to pull my hair out again lol. but hey ho just got to get on with it and it keeps me busy and occupied :-)
Amy has come over tonight to stay yeyyy. i made us dinner and we have just been chilling at my house. Even had the piggies out te he the cheeky Monkeys!! We are currently watching Saturdays xfactor on ITV catch up TV. Looking forward to tomorrow as we are off to London with Hayley yeyyy. Then its back for dinner at Bella Italia and Mum and friends are coming. Hazel and Jimmy are also coming over later in the evening yeyy. I will feel sad tomorrow as eddy will not be here buttt i am lucky to have such great friends and family around me. so very lucky xx 1 year ago tomorrow i was flying off to Monte Carlo. This year off to London wahooo. Its not where you go its what you make of it and London is close to my heart now. well i could sit here and chat al night but i wont :-p
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